real courage
is standing up to yourself when you think you know better.
posted by the lovechild of dorothy parker and oscar wilde @ 12:44 AM
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
just cause you feel it, doesn't mean it's there
She's beautiful and she says I am too.
She tells me the truth about love and trust and happiness, which really means being comfortable with being alone.
She tells me that it's ok to be hysterical and, as she walks away, she reminds me that in this inherently selfish world, the best you can do is
love
your
hysteria.
She tells me the truth about love and trust and happiness, which really means being comfortable with being alone.
She tells me that it's ok to be hysterical and, as she walks away, she reminds me that in this inherently selfish world, the best you can do is
love
your
hysteria.
posted by the lovechild of dorothy parker and oscar wilde @ 12:35 AM
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Saturday, March 14, 2009
on death and living
If I had myself a movie moment that put a rapidly-approaching expiration date on my life, I would not go travel the world. I would not run around naked, or wish to have sex or chocolate in the last hours of my life (how cliche!), or, for that matter, go on a thrill chase. I would live my life just like I always do, only more aware and more... proactive. I would have coffee with my mom and ask about her day. I would take Hayko to the park, or teach Ella a new trick, or play to my Jazz Philharmonic book and play-along, or call someone who knows me really well.
In short, I would be proactive- partly in ways I already am, and partly in ways I always mean to be but never get around to for no good reason at all. It's such a simple concept, that whole Ghandiesque "be the change you want to see" bit. But look around and I guarantee very few people are that way. And even those who pride themselves for being that way often only exercise it upon convenience.
I'm talking making it a way of life. Not like "Yes man," because that's more of a reactive concept. I mean a full 30-day experiment where I do at least one fully proactive and committed action each day. I'd like to say I'll blog about it every day... but if I don't, please don't assume I've abandoned my quest. I just hate being on the computer so call me for an update instead.
And, true to my nature, I will not wait until April 1st to start it, or a Monday for that matter. I will start it at an obscure time in the middle of the weekend.
I think I'll start with going to buy Ella a crate because she sleeps on my side of the bed and that gets old after a while. :)
In short, I would be proactive- partly in ways I already am, and partly in ways I always mean to be but never get around to for no good reason at all. It's such a simple concept, that whole Ghandiesque "be the change you want to see" bit. But look around and I guarantee very few people are that way. And even those who pride themselves for being that way often only exercise it upon convenience.
I'm talking making it a way of life. Not like "Yes man," because that's more of a reactive concept. I mean a full 30-day experiment where I do at least one fully proactive and committed action each day. I'd like to say I'll blog about it every day... but if I don't, please don't assume I've abandoned my quest. I just hate being on the computer so call me for an update instead.
And, true to my nature, I will not wait until April 1st to start it, or a Monday for that matter. I will start it at an obscure time in the middle of the weekend.
I think I'll start with going to buy Ella a crate because she sleeps on my side of the bed and that gets old after a while. :)
posted by the lovechild of dorothy parker and oscar wilde @ 3:17 PM
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